RIP to 3 of my close friends.

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First one was my best friend's older brother whom I had known for 5 years before his death and was like a big brother to me. He died September 2, 2010 due to suicide with carbon monoxide poisoning.
I had never been through the grieving process before, so his still affects me the most.

Second was a heroin overdose on an old ex/close friend of mine. I was already very depressed and contemplating suicide when he died, and it pushed me over the edge. He died November 17, 2012.

Third one was while I was in long term hospitalization, and his was suicide -- gun shot wound to the head. He died February 27, 2013. Luckily I was hospitalized when that happened, or I would've been an even bigger emotional wreck.

I miss them all so much. I just want to go to the afterlife and kick all of their asses.
I wish there was something I could've done to prevent these, but I know I couldn't.