YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

Hi guys,

I'm new here. Found the podcast recently and I believe it saved me during a very dark time. Three years into therapy I realised the reason I have been depressed, anxious and suicidal my whole life is due to both my parents abusing me and acting like nothing ever happened.

I've been using alcohol and sex/love/work addiction to numb myself since I was 11. I am now 27, aware that this shit isn't working and fucking miserable. I feel utterly lost, alone and honestly, I at time cannot see a reason to live. I am devoted to getting better and being happy. I know I will survive this.

I am sick of living a lie and sick of hiding my true self from people. I want love and intimacy. I don't want to hide all my pain in my art and music anymore.

So, yeah, hi, from Ireland.

Katie

Thanks for sharing!

Welcome.

Thank you!

Enjoying reading the posts here and knowing I'm not alone and others are making their way through this shit.

Welcome to the forum,
Glad to hear you are committed to getting better and being happy. I know those feelings of being alone, numb and lost and not seeing a reason to live. We just have to try to keep moving forward.

Thanks, BrownBlob. Its seriously hard going at the moment. I just went back to therapy after a month break, it felt good to catch her up on where I'm at.