Lately I've been job hunting
![Geek :geek:](./images/smilies/icon/geek.gif)
, and instead of taking whatever falls in my lap first I've decided to really apply myself and reach for something great. I polished up my resume, got a hair cut, bought some professional office clothes, made profiles on a few career sites and have been on the hunt.
My diligence seems to have paid off, because for the first time
ever I have a shot at getting a good job, with a great company, in the field I'm interested in, with real career potential!
![Pray :pray:](./images/smilies/eusa/pray.gif)
I have a chance to combine my (admittedly limited) work experience with my (also limited) education and start building my life up again.
![Dance :dance:](./images/smilies/eusa/dance.gif)
It feels like I have a future again. I had two interviews this past week, both of which went really well.
The longest job I've held was doing 3rd shift warehouse work. I don't regret my time spent there, it was exactly the kind of job I needed for that season of my life, but not too long ago it became clear that it was time to move on. Now I am totally outside of my comfort zone.
![Embarrassed :oops:](./images/smilies/icon/redface.gif)
Sometimes I feel energized and ready to keep taking steps forward.
![Cool 8-)](./images/smilies/icon/cool.gif)
Sometimes I feel like a fraud who has only accidentally managed to weasel other people into believing that I have something to offer.
I feel like I'm handling the psychological aspect of my job hunting anxiety ok - but the various physical manifestations are really taking the wind out of me. I tucker out so easily. I can usually pull myself together in the morning but by 4 or 5 pm I am absolutely exhausted, lethargic and beat down.
![Crying or Very Sad :cry:](./images/smilies/icon/cry.gif)
Lately I've been too tired to even stream movies while laying in bed for goodness sake! I've been sleeping 10+ hours every day. I'm also over eating, stuffing myself with carbs and fats at nearly every opportunity and have hence put on a bit of weight.
![Doh! :doh:](./images/smilies/eusa/doh.gif)
Getting regular exercise is a pipe dream at this point.
I came here primarily to vent a little, but if you have some words of encouragement to give me it would be greatly appreciated.
P.S.
As you can see, I rather enjoy smilies.
![Laughing :lol:](./images/smilies/icon/lol.gif)