Dear Exposure
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Dear Exposure
Today I learnt:
Cruelty enjoyed tricking me as a little boy. I'm still mad about that
Today I am grateful:
For deep fried Karaage chicken, miso soup and peach tea
Today I need:
To ask others for comfort and help even if I feel horrible and lonely as I do it
Today I forgive:
People who knowingly use me because they see no other way
Cruelty enjoyed tricking me as a little boy. I'm still mad about that
Today I am grateful:
For deep fried Karaage chicken, miso soup and peach tea
Today I need:
To ask others for comfort and help even if I feel horrible and lonely as I do it
Today I forgive:
People who knowingly use me because they see no other way
Last edited by Beany Boo on June 23rd, 2016, 5:32 pm, edited 4 times in total.
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
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hobojungle
- Posts: 197
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:01 pm
- Gender: Lady
- Issues: Depression. Anxiety. Agoraphobia. Possible ASD.
- preferred pronoun: Lady
Re: Dear Exposure
Hello Beany Boo,
I like your list, especially the forgiveness part.
Sincerely,
hobojungle
I like your list, especially the forgiveness part.
Sincerely,
hobojungle
I am acceptable; you are acceptable.
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
HoboJungle thank you 
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Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
Today I learnt:
I'm triggered randomly, because nourishment, safety and privacy were neglected in childhood out of sheer ignorance
Today I am grateful:
For warm clothes and coffee
Today I need:
To let others manage their own confusion however uncomfortable
Today I forgive:
Anyone who struggles to listen to themselves being spoken about by others
I'm triggered randomly, because nourishment, safety and privacy were neglected in childhood out of sheer ignorance
Today I am grateful:
For warm clothes and coffee
Today I need:
To let others manage their own confusion however uncomfortable
Today I forgive:
Anyone who struggles to listen to themselves being spoken about by others
Last edited by Beany Boo on June 25th, 2016, 4:36 am, edited 4 times in total.
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
Today I learnt:
There is no need to rush, but when you need to, you go ahead and rush the shit out of it
Today I am grateful:
That as disconnected as I feel, and as slight as my existence seems, I will still come from people
Today I need:
Affection, even if I can't tolerate it and my need feels too big
Today I forgive:
My dad; protecting you made me feel the most unsafe
There is no need to rush, but when you need to, you go ahead and rush the shit out of it
Today I am grateful:
That as disconnected as I feel, and as slight as my existence seems, I will still come from people
Today I need:
Affection, even if I can't tolerate it and my need feels too big
Today I forgive:
My dad; protecting you made me feel the most unsafe
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- techchick
- Posts: 56
- Joined: June 27th, 2015, 5:05 am
- Gender: tending toward NB
- Issues: Autism, ADHD (self DX), cPTSD, depression, binge / restrict eating disorder
- preferred pronoun: she / they
- Location: Central Mexico
Re: Dear Exposure
Beany Boo,
So simple and meaningful. keep 'em coming. I'll be thinking about your post today.
-- Amy (techchick)
So simple and meaningful. keep 'em coming. I'll be thinking about your post today.
-- Amy (techchick)
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
Thank you techchick 
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
Today I learnt:
Improvement demands letting messes flourish in real life
Today I am grateful:
I don't have to take care of your shit just to be around you with mine
Today I need:
To be openly kind on purpose
Today I forgive:
The whole world for heading down the toilet
Improvement demands letting messes flourish in real life
Today I am grateful:
I don't have to take care of your shit just to be around you with mine
Today I need:
To be openly kind on purpose
Today I forgive:
The whole world for heading down the toilet
Last edited by Beany Boo on June 27th, 2016, 4:37 am, edited 8 times in total.
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
Today I learnt:
To set a boundary using one coherent sentence, my feelings and my voice
Today I am grateful:
For awkward silences and unavoidable mistakes
Today I need:
My boss to say, "you are doing fine but you deserve more." It could happen.
Today I forgive:
People, with no investment, for putting expectations on me, that have nothing to do with me
To set a boundary using one coherent sentence, my feelings and my voice
Today I am grateful:
For awkward silences and unavoidable mistakes
Today I need:
My boss to say, "you are doing fine but you deserve more." It could happen.
Today I forgive:
People, with no investment, for putting expectations on me, that have nothing to do with me
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
Today I learnt:
'Mean' is just a technique, when you're afraid your anger doesn't belong to you
Today I am grateful:
The ideal life I use, to make sense of my suffering, is an excellent fake
Today I need:
A second to watch my inner reaction, in case I accidentally pretend I didn't have it
Today I forgive:
Any shit that happens whether I can change it or not (with my 'changing powers')
'Mean' is just a technique, when you're afraid your anger doesn't belong to you
Today I am grateful:
The ideal life I use, to make sense of my suffering, is an excellent fake
Today I need:
A second to watch my inner reaction, in case I accidentally pretend I didn't have it
Today I forgive:
Any shit that happens whether I can change it or not (with my 'changing powers')
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi