littleraincloud's diary

[littleraincloud]

Wow I really hope that I can avoid crying at work in front of everybody. I AM SO TIRED IT'S BEEN LITERALLY OVER A DECADE OF THE SAME DAMN THING FOR FUCKS SAKE

[littleraincloud]

I hate myself. I haaaaaaaaaaate myself.

[littleraincloud]

ok thanks guys. wonder what yall are thinking when you look at my posts but dont comment. "wow what a miserable bitch"?

[rivergirl]

Hi littleraincloud,
I've been reading your posts the last couple days and wanted to comment. Sometimes when reading posts on the forum I compose a comment in my head but then am afraid it won't be helpful or will seem insensitive and make someone feel worse.

You don't sound like a "miserable bitch" but like someone who is in a lot of pain and just struggling to survive with mental health issues like most of us here.

I hope you keep posting and sharing your feelings, and I hope you can find a therapist who is more helpful than the ones you had bad experiences with before.

rivergirl

[Beany Boo]

I feel helpless and frustrated when you express helplessness, frustration and isolation. I think, "Aaaaaargh!"

[brownblob]

hi littleraincloud

I'm like rivergirl. I see someone in a lot of pain, but I know that I have no words to offer that will make you feel better. I know what it is to feel that low, but I also know that when I'm that low nobody can say anything to make me feel different. Please take care of yourself.

[littleraincloud]

You guys are right, it's not fair to make other people responsible for validating my emotions. I appreciate your comments. I had a little bit of a breakdown yesterday, but am feeling comparatively better today.

[Beany Boo]

Please don't hold back now, just because you are not always getting the feedback you need. This is a place to vent, fall down, express difficult feelings and generally find the adequate language. People are reading you.

[littleraincloud]

hows this yall...im drunk with coworkers after our hallowee. party. i dressed up as carrie and won third place. now work is over and were at a bar. 4:30 pm screwdriver helllll yeahhhhhhh. i deepiy enjoy being troubled. just letting you know

[littleraincloud]

also!!! i put frontline plus on the cat and hopefully that will help. good recommendatuon oak (?)