...all the help I can get

[Tinyfiddle]

Hello. Been in a severe depression for about 8 mos. kind of tired of telling my story. Tired of doing anything really. Tired of asking for help. Meds aren't working. On my third therapist this year. Can't find any support groups and I feel like I've exhausted the few friends I feel safe enough to talk to.

Listening to this podcast is my lifeline right now. My only meaningful human contact other than the two days my exwife allows me with my kids which I can't enjoy because I am so sad and afraid I am fucking up there lives with my depression. My ex is certainly going to use it as a weapon against me in court

So far I am still somehow managing to function on a bare minimum level. I'm afraid it won't last and I'll lose my job. Not sure what to expect here but I'll try anything to get out of this. Ok. Hopefully only four hours to go today then back to bed.

[oak]

I am glad you posted. I am sorry you are suffering.

[brownblob]

tinyfiddle
I'm glad you found the podcast. I've just pulled out of a yearlong depression and I know listening to the podcast was a great help to me. For me, it was like the support group I never had. All I can tell you is to keep trying meds and therapy and anything else that might help. I know what it's like when the high point of your day is crawling back into bed and not caring if you ever wake up. I hope you find something to alleviate your pain.

[Tinyfiddle]

Thank you both. Glad to hear you have come through your depression brownblob. I can't even imagine that is a possibility right now. I seem to have some recollection that I was happy or at least content at one point but it doesn't seem real at the same time

[oak]

So, TinyFiddle, do tell: how is it going?

[Tinyfiddle]

Hey Oak. Thanks for asking. I'm muddling through. I was able to rally myself for my time with the kids this weekend. It took a lot out of me and it's always hard when I have to bring them back to there mothers. Had a really intense session with my therapist too. The tears came back big time. Voiced some thoughts and fears I have been holding in forever I think. I was actually shaking and having trouble breathing and it was really hard to voice the words. Got a long way to go.

[Imissmysun]

you want to climb the wall and that is awesome - being in the hole and not being able to see the light - but... but for those of us who have peeked at the sun had a few good days in a row - you will breathe again the burden will lift ever so little but once you have the momentum it does become a little easier bit by bit -

Opening up helps - feeling the feelings helps - realizing you have walls and locks and barb wire and security systems all around you keeping people away is a big find - it just takes time to dismantle your masterful cage -

Welcome