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[manuel_moe_g]

“I can make a beyond”

If anyone can Make A Beyond, it is my friend Beany!

Take care, Beany, all the best.

[oak]

So true, Manuel Moe.

We believe in you, Beany Boo. I believe in you.

[Beany Boo]

Ha!

Great support you guys.

I definitely felt my anxiety latch less onto immediate circumstances today.

And when it did go for the hijack around 1pm I sensed it long before it became problematic. I instigated outward breathtaking to re-oxygenate.

My time management is starting to approach yellow belt level lately (I’m a white belt currently). And I’m to-do listing like it’s my new favorite pastime. Both eventualities were previously unfamiliar to me. Time is valuable in a new way.

Am I making a beyond though? Unknown.

I’m off to writing group.

My other writing group

[oak]

Excellent.

To the extent you feel comfortable, I'd be very interested in reading a thread about your writing group experiences.

Such a thread would cover many topics dear this to forum: courage, facing anxiety, creativity, getting outside of one's own head, and being generative.

Something to consider!

[manuel_moe_g]

Hi Beany,

what is your preferred way of doing a to-do list?

[Beany Boo]

I use the app that comes with my phone.

I to-do actions that I would already do; catch the bus, make appointments, chores. I put on alerts that they’re coming up and put in repeat reminders. I put in notes; costs, timetable details, contacts. I put them into different folders like travel, appointments, exercise. I use emojis to make it quicker to read on the go. I also have footnotes in my notes app where more detailed guidelines are needed. Anything to spell out those regular mundane actions.

It’s basically to take everything that I would already be doing and put it on automatic. Then the space it takes in my head is freed up. Also the time it takes to do those things when they happen shrinks. I can put less effort into them at the time and my focus on what else is happening goes up.

There are no goals or ‘special projects’. It’s just daily stuff. But because it’s prepared and streamlined there’s less for anxiety to latch onto. The energy I gain can better go into watching bees.

[manuel_moe_g]

Beany, how many items on your To-Do list, usually, if you don't mind me asking?

I am playing around with a huge To-Do list, 90 items, on Google Sheets

but that is To-Do's for all aspects of my life, mundane, personal, work, social, etc.

i use a randomizer to pick which one i work one, just ask google for a random number 1-90

i work for a bit on it, then put it down, then rest or just fire it up again right away to work on the next random task

it is working pretty well of late, self-compassion is the key, as usual

[Beany Boo]

48 total but probably 30 main ones. The rest are just reminders for dates of upcoming public events that I could attend if available on the day.

The rest are things I already definitely will do. Bus rides, exercise classes, cleaning chores, meals...

There’s nothing in there that needs further justification or any pushing. I don’t even bother putting that type of stuff on there. I know already I won’t do it. I’m just giving oxygen to the limited group of stuff I already know will happen and giving forethought to choreographing it.

If I see an exercise class coming up, I’ll choose a calm moment to get clothes ready. If I see a meal reminder, I’ll put thought into what I want to eat. If I see I have 10 minutes to wait for a bus, I’ll live my life in each of those minutes. Things start getting less rushed and so paper thin.

[manuel_moe_g]

There’s nothing in there that needs further justification or any pushing. I don’t even bother putting that type of stuff on there. I know already I won’t do it. I’m just giving oxygen to the limited group of stuff I already know will happen and giving forethought to choreographing it.

Wise Beany.

[Beany Boo]

Today I have a task so perfectly botched by all parties that I have to prove that something hasn’t happened that on paper, has. Because of my mental health blueprint it feels like I’m being gaslit by a group of people who don’t even know each other. Also it feels like the universe heard I’m focusing on mistakes and said, “Oh yeah, well try THIS!”

I seem to have decided it’s the most interesting thing that’s ever happened. I’ve put the world on hold to solve this comedy of errors, calmly and enthusiastically. My first big task as a mistake diagnoser.

I can make a beyond.