Mindfulness

[Beany Boo]

I recognized I felt angry today, before I could detect any signs of it. That’s new. I sensed something was happening and recognized it as overwhelming anger. I felt no urge to ‘do’ anything or to demonstrate it. There was no shameful shutdown and no scramble for legitimacy.

If anything I just felt a strong need to wrap the feeling in respect. That’s the only way I can say it. Feel it and get busy respecting the feeling of it.

And maybe respect for the time taken to have a fulsome reaction.

[Beany Boo]

I had a confrontation today. The respect for my own anger switched on like a reflex now. As a result, I don’t really know what I said but it came easily. It was quickly over and I let the details of the moment slip from my awareness.

Disconcerting; inasmuch as that’s never really happened before. Hopefully, it can happen again soon.

[oak]

While I’m sorry you had to go through that, I’m pleased at how far you’ve come in the last year or so.

Well done.

[Mental Fairy]

Now that’s strength. Well done

[Beany Boo]

Thank you Oak and MF

[Beany Boo]

Returning from the supermarket I decided I would leave myself alone for the rest of the night. No nagging myself to do something, anything. For no reason, my brain accepted the decision. It’s the first time I’ve consciously dropped out of fight or flight mode.

[manuel_moe_g]

Outstanding to hear, Beany!

[Mental Fairy]

That does sound so freeing, almost like letting the ego completely drop away and be still, present in the moment and how life should be more often. World would be such a nicer place if everyone just did that Beany Boo

[Beany Boo]

Thank you MM and MF

[Beany Boo]

5 out of 10

The lesson of yoga is to maintain a level of 5 out of 10 on the exertion scale.

Today I maintained that towards my ‘cognitive load’.

It’s a different world at 5 out of 10.