Mindfulness

[manuel_moe_g]

Hi Beany!

Asking for help is always scary

[Beany Boo]

Thanks MM

[Mental Fairy]

There should be no shame is asking for help, yes it will bring a plethora of emotions but navigating them can’t be done on your own.

It takes a brave person to ask.

[Beany Boo]

Thank you MF

[Beany Boo]

Don’t Worry Village, South Korea:

https://www3.nhk.or.jp/nhkworld/en/ondemand/video/2022332/

[Beany Boo]

I think I might be a workaholic.

And/or

Participating in a work culture that enables workaholism.

I suspect that is why I feel handcuffed to my desk.

[Mental Fairy]

Grab the keys to those handcuffs my friend, it’s not worth it being tired to someone else’s desk. It might be your desk but really it’s not.

[Beany Boo]

Thanks MF

[Beany Boo]

I’ve instigated a 90 second pause, that I can use at any time.

It belongs to me.

[Beany Boo]

I had a smallish crisis today with some affairs. I overdid things as a result. The depletion left me feeling uncomfortably, distressingly paranoid and regressive. I knew it was exhaustion that generated the feeling but knowing that did not really help me to stop feeling it. It’s starting to wear off now that I’m back home and completely resting. Without someone immediately available to reflect me back to myself, I am nonetheless doing an okay job of seeing my own limits, when I’ve crossed them and when I’ve returned within them. ‘An okay job’ will have to be okay, as it is for the majority of adult humans.

I bought some Ghibli graphite pencils which are surprisingly reassuring in their tactility. And my supplements that are supposedly natural anti-inflammatories are helping out as well. They seem to make it easier not to perseverate.

I feel like my neediness is embarrassingly childlike, when I am depleted. But then I think that is possibly what everyone feels when they are in a fragile place. And then, maybe that’s not at all so bad, or worth worrying about.