Woke up felt awful knew it was tiredness got up felt fine.
I had reserves in the evening, last night. I knew I’d find it difficult to listen though because of my skill level.
I did PTSD study last night and unearthed another memory. The process seems to be working. I haven’t done CBT in a long time and never for traumatic memories. I think it was a good choice to embark on this.
I’m not sure what today is going to be like which is weird because I’m
usually certain. Not really sure what I want right now; like in general, but I know it’s present.
I seem to be on my game (a phrase I’ve never used) early in the day. I could pool all the techniques that come to mind to focus or, I could already be focused.
I’m going to go for taking care of someone else out of taking care of myself. I’m going to try and ‘host and guest’ (‘Omotenashi’, Zen tea ceremony); take turns in a conversation as fully as I can without efforting too much.
There’s a slim
certainty I’ll work a thing out
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Today’s cognitive fallacy to combat is ‘shoulds’. It doesn’t pay to think I should be doing life one way. I am not going to overreach, overreact or overthink a course. I’ll just find another way, or many.
