YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

An update: I still feel awful. I put in my two weeks notice at my current job because it was nothing like the application described and it's been causing me too much stress. I'm going to live off of my savings for awhile while I look for a new job. My dream job has always been to be an artist for vi...

I'm still having suicidal ideations and have very little hope for the future. I've been texting and calling everyone I can in case something bad happens to me. I'm really scared that I might try to commit suicide. I'm trying my best to keep myself occupied with things to keep my mind off of it, but ...

I'm sick of being depressed, I'm sick of being told to keep trying my best, I'm sick of getting hugs, I'm sick of talking about the same problems I have every week with people that don't know how to help, I'm sick of people telling me they "understand", I'm sick of being told to try things...

It sounds like you're definitely on the right track with the exercise. My therapist tells me that specifically intense exercise for a short burst is important to get the neurotransmitters pumping; I'm still kind of testing that one out, but it seems to be helping me. I think doing work that you enjo...

Thank you very much for your support.

It's been about a week and I'm starting to feel a little better. I'm at least not spending my lunch break sleeping, and I managed to finish a book I was reading instead. I'm still not feeling very much, but I can at least get motivated enough to do things. I'm going to play a video game online with ...

I've struggled with depression for most of my life. Lately though I haven't been feeling so much depressed as numb. The other night I tried to play a video game and gave up on it after about 10 minutes and went to bed 3 hours early even though I wasn't tired. I haven't wanted to read or crochet or d...

I'm going to rewrite my resume and update my portfolio with the game. Maybe that will help me get a new job (I get paid very little in my current job). It's very hard to do this with no motivation.

Oh, and "I know how you feel" and "Keep at it" have been said to me many times and haven't helped either. Sorry if this comes across as hostile, but I'm getting tired of hearing those two things.

I've been working as an artist for a computer game on and off for about 3 years. Last week the game released on Steam (sort of like iTunes for PC games), and it's been selling dismally. It's sold about 60 copies, and my cut of it ends up being about $50 for all of the work I put into it these years....