YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

Well, I'm staying off the Internets for awhile. Mainly because I've been feeling a bit better. I've felt worse, too, but being online for too long has taken a bit of a toll on my personal life, professional life, etc. Without getting into too much detail: 1. My propensity for self-sabotage eventuall...

Hey, gang! It's been a long time since I posted on Mentalpod, but I'm still as in love with the podcast and the site as I ever was. So, I've decided to return to the really cool waiting room to let you know what I've been doing. I am currently writing/performing a one-woman sketch comedy show about ...

As I mentioned earlier, any system that plays favorites is as inherently flawed as the person administrating it - and, yes, his "favorites" were few and far between. It took me way too long to realize that I harbored way too much needless anger at this one teacher for almost nothing. He's ...

I just started on Prozac yesterday. So far, decent - I still feel crappy, but I'm told that I'll "feel worse before I feel better." I'm on half-doses for the moment. I'm also taking it at 8:00 in the morning, which seems to work out with my schedule. The main reason my doc prescribed an an...

Another thing: His constant criticism has never made any sense to me at all. Like he's blaming me for things I never do, or that other people do in scenes with me. I've had teachers and castmates in my corner who can tell that I'm making a decent effort to play nice and as skilled as I can. Someone ...

Yeah, this isn't just "some" theatre school. The ladies in my support group urged me to train somewhere else, and I snapped, "I can't do this anywhere else." My best bet is to wait until this one guy leaves, which should hopefully be some months from now. I feel better about sayi...

It's important to remember that society constantly tells us about an impossible standard. For women, especially, it can be hard. I think the writings of Susan Douglas (Enlightened Sexism), as well as the recent documentary Miss Representation only recently shed light on this. But everything - from b...

Calamity Calm - Double true to the idea that my mom won't really "believe" in me until I accomplish something substantial with my artistic pursuits. She seems to believe in total or near-total strangers more than she believes in me. For example, a guy we know was recently featured on "...

Fancy this...his advanced class is having auditions again. I felt like I gave a better performance than I am even capable of the last time and still didn't make it in. Before I quit, I wanted to go out on a high note. From what I've told people, he basically "zoned out" while I was perform...

Heh. Mansplaining. That's a great one! My newest self-talk that I've desperately been trying to reverse is that, if I had been at my most confident, assured, and positive in the past, not only would I have been the teacher's favorite, I would have gotten into his Advanced class despite my own best e...