YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

Kilohertz: The thing is that I wouldn't want to hang out with him. You I'm more interesting in hanging out with. Might not mean much, but there it is. What a kind thing to say! I listened to the Bill Lawrence WTF episode, too. He does sound vaguely unpleasant. And he comes from money. I mean, good f...

called the suicide hotline this afternoon. the phone reception was not that great -- we kept getting separated by waves of static -- but the person was compassionate in hearing me out. she offered me several places to check out in the area with sliding scale payment options. i'm trying. i'm failing ...

Amendment. Apologies. This happens when you troll through discussion boards half-drunk on a Sunday mourning (sic). I failed to look at the dates of posts and didn't realize when this discussion started. Which, it seems, was quite a long time ago from this weekend. I hope you're still with us and far...

PAC: [shyly raises hand] Entertainment industry. Horror screenwriter. Broke through in 2006. Enjoyed some highs and near-highs and astronomical lows. In the past year, I've gone from "how long can I last with the money I've got?" to "how deep can I afford to dive into the debt I'm get...

i think about suicide a LOT. it's amplified when i'm going through an extremely hard time. i close my eyes and picture it. fantasize about it. but i don't really act on it. when i'm really shattered, like now, i will reach out to friends. friends who have been with me for years. sometimes i will ope...

okay, i'm feeling suicidal now. i'm not a jumper. i could jump off the roof of my apartment building but that would be too splashy. i don't want to be splattered all over the sidewalk. i don't want to be a story on NY1. bleeding out would be sweet. but messy. hanging. that's what keeps coming to min...

Aaand... it's over! It ended last night. I feel supremely cursed. You know how long it's been since I cared about someone?

I wish I felt suicidal right now. I feel like I'm already dead.

I hate everything. I never want to be seen again.

I obsess over my weight all of the time and I really feel like a worthless piece of shit because of it. Not the obsession, but the weight. I don't like seeing people who knew me when I was thinner. I try to avoid it. And, also, I really really hate when people tell me I'm just "natural" a...

This resonates with me: In a dream, I'm a different me. With a perfect you, we fit perfectly. And for once in my life, I feel complete... ... and I still wanna ruin it. -NIN, "Even Deeper" This one is the breakup song: Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at. Maybe you would hav...

Damn, you sound like me. If you've only been on one date, then it's probably too soon to tell her all the gory details anyway. But in the future, you might consider this: what if she were the one who was "mental"? Would you run away from her? I would hope that you would expect her to take...