YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

Thankx everyone. I ended up go to the hospital on may 29 in the evening. I am out on a pass right now. I have been set up with a therapist and a group. I hope I can put enough energy into actually getting better.

i am going down fast. i am taking far more wellbutrin than i should be. I am not eating, i am cutting. I dont care about anything. I am just done. I cant end it yet so I am still going to work but i am not going to be able to hold on long. maybe i will get skinny first, lol. i fucking fail.

thank you. self injury is a good thing to not be good at.

Cheldoll wrote: This one really hits home for me. I think it's at the core of the difficulties I have managing my depression/anxiety/eating disorder because there is a part of me that has already resigned to my "fate."

that is how I feel too.

than you.

no I am not in therapy. I am too weak, trying to deal with my shit sends me over the edge.

most of my meds ar actually covered. I am on "plan g" which covers most psych. meds, it is the sleeping med and the topamax that isn't. technically I could get most of my meds, but i would also need to see a doc. for a rx. I am just making excuses for myself and want to be able to get all ...

I fear that I will always be waiting for the right time to kill myself.

I fear that because I have basically given up and am not really trying to get better, I will be seen as someone who just wants attention, a whiner, lazy, and not welcome here.

Lithium has helped me. I did not find I had any side effects, that could be because I almost never have side effects or because I was also on wellburtin, topamax, seroquel, immovane, and clonazepam at the time. I am assuming you are not in Canada, but if you are you can apply for "plan g" ...

the welllburtin will take about6 weeks to start working. You said you have had these side effects from stopping the cypralex before. It royally sucks changing meds, but if you dont stick with the wellburtin for atleast 6 weeks you won't know if it will work for you. have you talked to your doctor ab...