YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

It's like, you're the only person who really understands what a piece of shit I am. or something like that. why have I learned more about my multiple conditions from you and your podcast than I have in years (and years(andyears)) of therapy? So, Have we come up with a new word that covers thank you ...

At 47 years old I am finally taking control of the train wreck that is my life. I grew up in an alcoholic home with a depressed mother and a hyper-critical father. As a young person I had a propensity for creative expression, and some of my first memories involve digging clay out of the ground at th...

25 pounds in 2 months. My clothes don't fit and my body hurts. Everything feels so out of control: the anxiety, the fear, the never ending rehashing of All Things Humiliating or Horrid in my mind with no resolution. I am argumentative with everyone about everything (decidedly not a normal thing for ...

Thanks, Manuel Moe.

I love the way my dogs smell, not when they are clean, but when they just smell like dogs. I love listening to the owls at night when I can't sleep. I love it when the clay is just the right consistency for what I want to do. I love when I have to force myself into doing something that will probably...

I fear I will always be too sensitive and never be able to shrug off the mean-spirited words of others I fear I will never know the pleasure and comfort of sleeping next to someone who adores me (who is not my dog.) I fear that my anger and bitterness, newly unleashed, will consume me more violently...

Dear Diary, Believe me, if I knew how to let it go, I fucking would. I fantasize about unleashing on the next person who tells me to, "*JUST* let it go." Isn;t that the point of this mental illness, that I know that this shit is toxic, but it's been part of me for 29 years and I don't know...

Thanks, Dave. I will consider myself hugged in a well-meaning and not creepy way. It's exactly what I needed. Thanks.

Today seems like a good day to just fucking annihilate myself. SO tired of waking up in the middle of ruminating. So tired of the nightmares. So tired of fighting. so tired. Tired of crying. tired of feeling stuck feeling alone feeling like an idiot who can't do anything just because of the way I th...

Hey, I'm so glad you have your dog. There are many days that my two are the only thing tethering me to this ground. I'm sorry about your job--I was fired once, but it was from a hell job. It still felt bad. Losing your dream job sucks. Please try to hold yourself as gently as you hold your dog, for ...