YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

Wondering who you are? Cant even write properly. Wondering who I am..

So its been a bad few days where iv gone back down my hell hole. Felt so numb to everything. Wondering who u actually am???? I have so much hate for me. It catches me. Eats me. Torments me. So from numb to angry. Yay!!!

So not long till my phase goes, and in flys another. Maybe its too easy and im to used to prerending it's all okay. I cant think straight through my bad phases. My only safe place to empty is in my head.

So here I am at 26 still suffering and plodding along. Depression has always been me for as long as I can remeber. Sexual abuse at 9 years old. Maybe it all stems from there. But that's one thing that made me who I am today. A hermit, I am 2 people. I pretend I hide my feelings. Even self harmed for...

Life is one big journey into complete happiness! Well not for me. For as long as I can remeber I have been different from the rest. All people said was oh well she will grow out of it. Im 26 now. as the years go on it seems to go deeper in my bones. I have never been any different. No social life, n...