YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

Glad to have you here, Noyoki.

I do a podcast with a friend of mine. While it's mostly about Star Wars, through a chain of events, I felt compelled during our last recording to talk about a previous emotionally manipulative possibly abusive relationship I was in. It's the first time that I've ever really talked about it outloud. ...

I'm sorry you've had a rough time. I get the fear that somehow your depression is the "real" thing and that sucks. I am the same way when I lose co-workers. Don't invalidate your feelings over that. We send a lot of time at work. Even when it's not someone you are super close to on a perso...

So. A good thing happened. A few weeks back a friend of mine got to interview my favorite actor in the world (Ben Mendelsohn) for his podcast. The episode was a joy to listen to and I also loved hearing my friend talk about the experience. I didn't even feel jealous (which surprised me a little) jus...

I thought things were getting better and then a Ben Fold song started playing and I cried for like 10 minutes and I suspect maybe I'm not quite out of this depressive episode yet.

I didn't properly block-off the entry to outside play area and when we took the classroom rabbits outside, one of them escaped (and was caught 2 minutes later).


...and yes, I realize how insane that sounds as a thing I would still stress out over.

Thanks. It is comforting to know that this place is here.

Can't sleep because today I said casualty when I meant causality and so the last couple of hours have been spent staring at the ceiling and hating myself. Even though I caught it and corrected myself as soon as it happened, and honestly, even if I hadn't, how is this possibly something to obsessive ...

Wooo boy. Reintroducing myself maybe? It's been like a year and a half since I was here. Things have been okay, except for when they aren't. Right now they....aren't. After a pretty long stretch of sleeping okay, my insomnia is back. The feedback loop of that and my anxiety/depression is bad. Hating...

I just found out that my 14-year-old brother has a degenerative eye condition. It is likely that he will become legally blind by the time he is 20. I can't stop crying. I have never felt more helpless.