long time listener, first time poster.

[Photographymatt]

Hello all.

I suck at these intros so bare with me...

31, uk. Been dealing with steadily worsening mental health, with short periods of less suck in-between, for about 17yr now:-(

Officially diagnosed with depression but if anyone knows anything about the NHS....mental health care is criminal in the uk. Recently been to my doctor and after I explained in depth everything, she seemed to point towards bp2 which is something Iv suspected.

racing thoughts, negative voices, suicidal, self harm after long period of not, not sleeping/sleep too much when I finally pass out, obsessively focus on something usually creative then when I drop..nothing. theres other stuff but I struggle focusing on my thought at the moment so Ill leave it there. not doing well

Have appointment with the psych-doc 2nd june which is amazing...consider it was 3 months ago I went to the doctor.

first found the podcast during a low period and enjoyed it, but when I was "well" lost touch with it. Iv gained a lot from listening to the episodes, I often feel a weight has been lifted in the same way I feel after counselling. Iv had to pause it while driving due to tearing up sometimes but thats ok:-)

Hope all of you are ok and look forward to more episodes.

regards
Matt H

[manuel_moe_g]

Hello Photographymatt, welcome to our little forum. Make yourself at home in the threads and topics here.

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Sorry to read that you are in a low period, and that you had such a long waiting period for mental health professional help.

You are not alone. Please take care, all the best, we here are cheering for you and for your greatest today and tomorrow.

[Photographymatt]

Thank you Manuel.

reply appreciated. how are you? Iv just found a very appropriate smilie for me... <--- Started playing violin in nov and really enjoy it:-)