It'sa me, Wistful Fucker!

[Eljefetacoma]

Hi guys (Paul). I'm getting older, still no kids, dog's got a seizure disorder, I have trouble making friends and the (fourth) love of my life is crazier than I am. i think. She's great, but is not great at getting help and keeping her life on track. We're separated cuz I can't deal with any drama right now.

I'm codependent. Started Al-Anon recently to work on the issue.
Bipolar, still working out my medication situation.
ADD. Planning to get back on ritalin soon. Those pills are expensive!
Love addiction is a beast. If I go to something and don't get soulful attention from a lady I'm totally bored.
Faulty libido. Sometimes I'm voracious, but a lot of the time I'm dead down there. Its got something to do with being abused sexually.
Brother sexually abused me when I was 12. I've been in a black hole of shit ever since.
Perfectionist. It's hard to produce art when you hate your own work.
Lonely extrovert. Still miss the abusive ex-wife.

I love myself and people, but being this old with no kids and no stable LTR is extremely lonely. I wish I had a clear path to happiness, but then who does, really?

[Murphy]

Hi! Welcome!

I'm sorry you're going through all that. I hope you're able to get some help.

[rc409]

Wistful, dont know if this is ok, but theres something endering about someone like you. Perfectly imperfect is what your post said to me.

The "am I perfect" Possibly not. Good enough to have some fun, damn rights.