Hello
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GlenGarryBobRoss
- Posts: 1
- Joined: October 30th, 2015, 6:10 pm
- Gender: Male
- Issues: Depression, anxiety
- preferred pronoun: he
Hello
I'm a 45 year old male, I've struggled with anxiety and depression my entire life. There is definitely a genetic component but I grew up in a physically and verbally abusive household (none of it directed at me). I have been able to function pretty well with the help of medication and counseling, I was able to graduate from college and get a good job. I've been divorced the last 3 years and I have a daughter with a chronic illness who has had constant hospitalizations over the past year. I'm not doing well now. I have a strong aversion to socialization (calling it social anxiety doesn't feel correct) and I tend to isolate. I get very upset over my inability to socialize and feeling left out. I feel stupid, incompetent, ugly and useless. So anyway, hi!
Re: Hello
Hi
It must be so hard having a child with chronic illness...I'm sure you feel like you have to be so strong for her... I can't imagine how must stress and worry you have to go through every day...
I can totally relate to your social aversions. I don't know about you, but I am super sensitive and I get offended so easily that I would rather just isolate myself and deal with my depression/anxiety. Outside of family, I've completely cut myself off from social friends and on one side, I'm relieved, but on the other, I feel so lonely at times. That's when I come here so I can connect with people like you and it makes me feel less alone.
Right now, I'm going down a really bad anxiety/downward spiral and I feel like such a failure. I feel like no one can help me and I'm going to be powerless for the rest of my life. Like a piece of gum on the ground that everybody steps on. So you're not alone in your demoralizing thoughts.
Hope you feel comfortable here!
It must be so hard having a child with chronic illness...I'm sure you feel like you have to be so strong for her... I can't imagine how must stress and worry you have to go through every day...
I can totally relate to your social aversions. I don't know about you, but I am super sensitive and I get offended so easily that I would rather just isolate myself and deal with my depression/anxiety. Outside of family, I've completely cut myself off from social friends and on one side, I'm relieved, but on the other, I feel so lonely at times. That's when I come here so I can connect with people like you and it makes me feel less alone.
Right now, I'm going down a really bad anxiety/downward spiral and I feel like such a failure. I feel like no one can help me and I'm going to be powerless for the rest of my life. Like a piece of gum on the ground that everybody steps on. So you're not alone in your demoralizing thoughts.
Hope you feel comfortable here!