60 miles to the nearest Flashing Light

[sonya123]

Hi I live in a very small North Dakota town. I also have an alcohol problem. I have started to become weepy. I am trying to finish up the house to sell. I need to lay some floor in the bathroom, paint the kitchen and put up some trim in the bathroom. I was able to wash some dishes today. Four or five years ago I had a real issue. I could no longer read, drive , pump gas, watch a movie, just shut down. Today I can drive and pump gas and write this. But confusion continues on my brain. I still have the same phone as I did 5 years ago and I don't know how to twitter. I am returning to live with my mother who has financial problems and her husband ( they have been married for 40 years) He has been having strokes for 20 years plus 2 types of cancer(remission) has had by passes and difibulator and pacemaker and the guy wont die. We all want this. My head is so very fuzzy and I just am not getting the house done. I don't have much left to do- well much more that I have stated above. I know that I must stay away from thoughts like-" I am a burden" I have a tough time leaving the house. I was brave and got the garbage can. lol well it does prevent me from buying wine most days. I have a great support group were I am moving to I have AA and Smart and another recovery group. Plus my family which is good and also stressful. My mother is so worried about me. I know I am lucky but am so fuzzy in the head. I would be doing so much better if I wasn't so isolated and I have so much anxiety right now. It is hard to motivate. I think that I am going to get a person to check on me. This nice lady may come and visit me lol just have to go to her house and ask lol

[rivergirl]

Welcome sonya123,
I once lived in a town of only 900 people and I can't even remember if we had a single stoplight in town. It sounds like you'll have a great deal to cope with living with your mom and her ill husband, but it's great that you'll have support groups there. Isolating is probably the worst thing we can do, but I can relate since I have that tendency too. I hope to see more of your posts. Take care of yourself during your move,

rivergirl