Episode 320: Fantasy & Love Addiction - Maia Akiva

[SpookyGhost]

Paul's fellow support group friend shares about the huge role fantasy has played in her struggle to accept life; especially her love addiction. She talks about being unable to watch lesbian films in moderation (she is a lesbian) and how the CPTSD from her physical (and emotional) trauma at birth and being raised in an emotionally stifled home (where success was the only thing that mattered) have made intimacy and trust difficult especially with her struggles with low self-esteem. Inspired to help others as she has healed Maia now facilitates workshops and speaks publicly to help others who are also struggling.


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[CardinalRose]

After listening to this past Friday's episode, some things make sense. I was born out of an emergency c-section and the doctor couldn't see me so he reached in my mother blindly. He only found me when I clamped my mouth on his thumb because it reached all the way to the back of my throat. I was put in an incubator for jaundice and was never breast fed due to my mother's post partum depression. My father wasn't in my life for the first six months. The rest of my life has been spent dodging blows from my father towards mt self worth (until recently) and being in the shadow of my mother's mental illness and currently controlling narcissistic personality. There wasn't much affection in my family. What I'm taking away from this is that I started my life with fight or flight (trauma) and have been sequestered from the human reality of genuine affection. This explains why I live every day guarded and leary of everyone I meet. I'm glad I listened to the episode because I had no idea trauma could be labeled so early in life.