afraid to feel disappointed in myself

[oak]

Thank you for sharing, Manuel Moe. 25 minutes like the perfect segment of time for working.

That is, intuitively, how long I practice guitar/ukulele on the nights I have spoons for it.

Like my moral hero Goldilocks, we can find that amount of time that is not too short and not too long. 25 minutes sounds exactly right.

[manuel_moe_g]

25 minutes of programming. Pathetic. But it is better than zero minutes of programming!

Yeah, I feel more capable now. Still feel overwhelmed by the length of my to-do list, but at least i found the 25 minutes of programming is not impossible.

That is, intuitively, how long I practice guitar/ukulele on the nights I have spoons for it.

I have to introduce my therapist to spoons theory.

Anyway, Oak, you are the best. You don't know how seen I felt when I saw your reply. I just hope I can return a fraction of the favor back to you.

[oak]

[manuel_moe_g]

another 25 minute programming day.

the slowest programmer ever, and can only work 25 minutes a day doing it

i had a friend in high school who was also a programmer, bet he would laugh at me

of course, i program very carefully, because me mind goes immediately to what can possibly go wrong (thank you, anxiety!)

so i always improve the systems that i program against

and my mask hurts my ears, lol, i am full of self-doubt and complaints

i walked today, which makes me feel better

i will take my break, and then another 25 minutes timed doing paperwork chores

i hope everyone is healthy, happy, and safe. i have a bad feeling that many of my friends are under housing insecurity. i can pray and send good vibes. i wish life was easier on the good people i have found