Favorite pretty lie: my ideas for heaven.

[oak]

I'm touched, Rivergil, that my post moved you. We have human hearts under all the scars and society and ostensible ironic detachment. It is our real selves.

You'll be pleased to hear that, speaking objectively, my job search is kicking ass and taking names. Even better, the first blush of fitness and rigor (or maybe a rough and tumble spirit) is starting to rub off on me via martial arts: women are just starting to notice me.

I vividly remembered your encouragement as I walked to taekwando tonight (Friday): I saw a cool brother with a pretty date, and was able to be happy for them.

So, I am on my way and can be happy for others. I am still desperately lonely, especially at night, but there is a way forward.

[rivergirl]

I'm glad that you were feeling hope when you wrote this, Oak.

I know that desperately lonely feeling, and it's deeply painful. But there is a way forward, and I see you taking steps on the path.