Like the whole world is against me.

[Beany Boo]

It reminds me of cognitive diffusion;

You accept the content of the self talk you’re suffering through, but you attempt to soften, lighten or make slower or quieter, (gentler, kinder, less certain) the tone of voice it’s coming through in. Even a fraction less intense, if you can pull it off, and it can be a huge relief.

[duck1]

Thank you all, for listening.

At the moment I am very fatigued. I work very hard at work, maybe too hard, and then I receive more work.

We are working very hard and trying many therapies with my almost 11 year old daughter. A lot of things have improved but socially she is very rejected,

It saddnes me to hear this. The one thing I think I can do is sign her up to clubs for things she likes to do and then she'll meet kids that are similar to her.

I am so tired and I still have some cooking.

I hope that when I finally go to sleep I'll be recharged.

[manuel_moe_g]

Good luck to you and your daughter, Duck1. Sending you good vibes over the internet wires, to recharge your batteries. Remember to take care of yourself first, then you are in the best position to help all others.

[duck1]

Neibour complained to husband that ever since he became our parking neiborr his car is scrached, expically where door meet.
Said he doesn't blame us but asked us to pay attention.

He's the kind of guy that is always right.

I said, well maybe it's daughter fault (she sits in back) and I apologized.

Then he sent picutre of front door.

I really felt bad seeing the picture. He said that there are also signs of bumps on his car from reverse parking (bumps).

I really felt bad about this like a loser all over. knowing myself it could be me.

Asked husband if ok that we offer compensation, husband said ok.

So I wrote to him that because it may be my fault we offer him compensation and he tells us how much.

He thanked us and said he will get back to me after checking.

I feel a little less bad after a few hours.

Friend came over to daugher we had lunch together it was nice.

[manuel_moe_g]

Stay strong, Duck1. Again, sending you good vibes over the internet wires.

[duck1]

Thanks

[duck1]

I feel pretty bad. I have covid and finishing quarantine in about three more days. I am anxious about going back to work becuase my boss is so mean that their is probably loads of shit on my desk.

Finding a very job in my field is very difficult..

So I really just want to get back to work and move that shit out of the way.
I know what makes me feel better and that is too keep busy. Like cleaning and arranging my room and stuff like that.

I think that a lot of things bother me that are beyond my control:
1. I want to work and look at my inbox but it is forbidden because of very strict policies they emplaced at my work.
2. I want my boss to be a more fair human being (and maybe a less mean/cruel one). I want her to delegate work better and not give in to the bullies. I want some consideration after being on leave, and this never happens.
3. I want to check my inbox very much but I know I will become upset, because of all the upsetting things I will most likely find there.
4. I want to go to sleep and wake up in a different mindset but I don't think I will be able to.
5. There is a someone who used to be my friend but is no longer and I want to communicate with her about my covid.


Thank you for listening.

[manuel_moe_g]

Thank you for posting, Duck1. I wish I could take on part of your burden, to help you out. We are listening. Please get well.

[duck1]

Dear Manuel,
You are a very nice guy.

[rivergirl]

It's good to see you here again Duck1, but I'm sorry about the Covid and your awful work circumstances. And it's so hard when you have the impulse to communicate with a friend and then remember that you no longer can.

I know it isn't much, but sending you many good thoughts & a hug.

river girl