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working to slow down the vagus nerve in the heart - to inhibit and override the amygdala stress response, instead of just burning away the stress hormones after the have been created
my subconscious brain is constantly pushing memories and thoughts into my conscious brain area. the memories and thoughts are: humiliating, shameful, painful, inspiring hopelessness, agonizing ---> when that happens, taking the part of the brain that manifested that negative memory or thought, and seeing it like a crying baby, and holding that baby gently, and rocking that baby slowly back and forth ---> this engages the thought less than purely rationally dealing with the memory or thought as an acknowledgement of the avoidance of future pain, and the problem with that is that I do feel a little sadder from "touching" that negative memory or thought
when i am able to work on stuff that previously i would avoid out of fear ---> < CELEBRATIONS AND GRATITUDE ARE IN ORDER !!!
>when i feel hesitancy, when I feel rebellious/defiant feeling that prevents me from taking effective action toward my goals ---> use it as an opportunity to maybe clarify the action or break down the action into a smaller bit
<IMPORTANT> Byron Katie "4 questions" to turn around a <core> negative thought into a positive thought
further fleshing out of my 35 minute structure ----> 5 minutes dopamine boost to ramp up into work, 25 minutes doing the work, 5 minutes reward total restful posture dopamine boost
had <great> experience with using the 35 minute structure long breaks that are mindful and intentional --- have the ending feeling in mind and pick stuff and time limits that will give me that ending feeling
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wow, a lot to flesh out, but out of time right now
bye!
