Rough day

[rivergirl]

Please forgive me for posting this. I'm barely holding on. It's a sunny day with blue skies but I feel so much grief and so much fear about my future. I'm not going to hurt myself but part of me doesn't want to hold on any more.

[oak]

Please forgive me for posting this. I'm barely holding on. It's a sunny day with blue skies but I feel so much grief and so much fear about my future. I'm not going to hurt myself but part of me doesn't want to hold on any more.

RiverGirl, tell us more.

What's going on?

[manuel_moe_g]

No need to apologize. We are totally here for you.

Life can be so hard.

[Beany Boo]

Hi RG,

It is a tough day.

I am sorry you’re feeling overwhelmed.

I had a tough one too.

I commiserate.

[rivergirl]

Thank you for the replies, MM, Oak, & Beany. They mean more to me than I can express.

I appreciate the commiseration, Beany. Anything you feel like sharing? And I hope today was better for you.

There wasn't anything particular that happened yesterday, just my usual weekend struggles at a heightened level that caught me off guard. It started with waking up at 2 a.m. Saturday morning from sad dreams. Yesterday evening and today were somewhat better.

I do think that I've been apprehensive about November. Daylight savings time today means getting out of work and driving home in the dark, which has felt more difficult the past few years. I'm feeling a fair amount of dread about the election on Tuesday. This is also an especially busy month at work, there are two long weekends, my birthday, the start of the holidays, etc.

I'm grateful to this group for being here. It often feels like the only truly safe place to express myself.

rg

[Beany Boo]

Hi rg

Thank you for holding space for me. Today was better.

[rivergirl]

Any time, Beany. I'm glad you had a better day.