Winding down pop: 2/3 next six weeks?

[oak]

Hi friends.

I just met via Zoom with my dietician.

While I am down 15% of my body weight, she believes I could be closer to my goal weight* were I to limit then eliminate pop. Since I've been sober I've been at 3 cans, or more, a day.

I meet with her again in six weeks. We tentatively agreed on about replacing 2/3 of this mishegas by that meeting, in late March.

I'll have more to say, but I wanted to get this preliminary info out right now. Thanks for listening.

[oak]

Friends, for another topic that seems completely different, but may not be:

I realized, three months ago, that in my job I can't fix the historical data.

Today, I had what I thought would be a routine meeting with my supervisor, to update him about a project that admittedly has been an ongoing mess.

(Spoiler: there is a happy twist at the end!)

Like a lot of these messes, this begins with me saying that my supervisor is overall a good person.

However, for as long as I've been there, he has flustered me. Today's example:

1. Asked me why an outside agency formatted a spreadsheet with a specific color.

2. He asked me three questions at once.

As always, I got flustered.

Hmmmm

Two things to consider:

1. Ten people have held this position in as many years; some for a few weeks, none more than a year. I'm the first person to stay over a year.

2. Tomorrow I have a phone interview for a very similar position.

3. I had a "missing missing reasons" talk with him Nov 16, which he handwaved away.

https://www.issendai.com/psychology/estrangement/missing-missing-reasons.html

What I'm trying to get at:

I think part of the reason why I had a breakdown in January is because I realized I can't win at this job.

If a job is something like an iterated game, then the impossibility of winning any given game can make a person break down.

In conclusion

I had a nervous breakdown because this job is a game I can't win at.

And with such unwinnable games, the only solution is to walk away.

We all laugh at the corny lyrics of the old song "The Gambler", but I think there is a lot of truth to them.

Bigger picture

Be it pop or a bad job, there are some games we can't win.

"Doing better" and "try communicating" are good advice, until they aren't (missing missing reasons).

I knew, in November, I should have offered my resignation.

I don't know if anyone can do my job, but I know for sure that I can't.

Perhaps my solution, which is not super moral, is to do the minimum at my job and position myself to make that next move.

Is this making sense, friends?

[manuel_moe_g]

“”” Perhaps my solution, which is not super moral, is to do the minimum at my job and position myself to make that next move.”””

I don’t see this as immoral at all. Perfectly moral to prioritize yourself and be self-compassionate