Mind Body and Trauma

[Mental Fairy]

Absolutely love your input. Much appreciated. I agree with you.
Looks like we moving sooner, it all starts tomorrow.
Matt is back from the farm. Joe was here in a bedroom sleeping when we’re carrying stuff outside to the trailer. We started laughing about something, Joe got up and stormed off. It’s the first time Matt and I laughed so hard in ages before Joe flew off the handle. Was so nice to see him back from the sticks. Yes, we call it sticks! He planted 353 trees today. Whoop!

Onwards and upwards.

Xx

[manuel_moe_g]

Thank the stars my masculinity is not so fragile that I need my wife and daughter to stuff themselves into a tiny box, lest they outshine me

All blessings to you in this new phase of your life, Mental Fairy

[Mental Fairy]

Hi Family

I’m all moved in. It’s absolutely blown me away how freeing it feels. Budgeting everything out and cross fingers the house sells soon. It will be tight but it will be worth it. It took two days to get everything out. I’m absolutely exhausted and overwhelmed with feelings.

Today I timed myself riding to work on the bike. Took me 11min there and 17min back.
Running it will be a different story. I’ve lost so much fitness. I need to claw my way back gently.

For the first time today I woke up and had a cuppa outside and went back to bed again. I never do that. I was so tired I had to go back.

I love next to Te Henui walkway, I have over 23km of trails around me in the bushland. River to cold plunge into. The only negative is I’m on a busy road. That’s ok. It’s perfect no matter what way you look at it.

Last night I attended Yin yoga at the class I used to go to. It’s been 7 months since I last attended. It was difficult to sit in some positions in my own head. I felt so many conflicting emotions.

I’ve picked up my drawing stuff again and doing some drawing and colouring in to get the mind to relax a bit. Next week we move our dental practice so it will be all hands on deck. I’m incredibly tired.

I kept thinking of you all while I was moving. I asked out for support from my dad, I hoped and prayed I had him here. I hope to stay here for 12 months so I can get my shit together and move forward. Feeling ready fragile at times. A fragile freedom.

Mazie is settling in. Took a couple of days to get her out from under the bed. Now she is at my feet snuggling in. Long may this last.

Back soon. Will check in tomorrow

Love to all

[troebia]

From your words I can tell you're much more put together now. Still uphill but you're on track, with less loose ends dangling. Having your own place must feel awesome!

[Mental Fairy]

Hi Lovely

It does, but it comes with a price. But that’s ok. It has to be. The next few weeks we have to move this surgery so I will be doing my best to keep the transition smooth.

My thought patterns are smoother but still go into a zone where I wonder what the heck I’m doing and where the heck I’m going. I don’t like change too much so this has pushed my anxiety and moods all over the show.

How are things with you Troebia? Would love an update? I heard more rain came your way after the floods?