Mind Body and Trauma

[manuel_moe_g]

Ugh, if i had a magic wand, would totally rid you of those horrid nightmares

Life is so unfair

The only justice comes from good, capable people waking up in the morning, re-committing to using their hands & arms to do right, as best they can, knowing tomorrow morning they will have to re-commit anew. Other than that, what we call “justice” is a cruel illusion

[Mental Fairy]

Hey my people

I’m now on the last week before heading to South Island for epic trip of discovery, history, gold mining, mountains, lakes and rivers. From large metropolitan city to little townships with a population of 76, all related!

I thought I was doing ok for a bit with therapy really getting to the depths of my inner most horrible thoughts and memories. Last week I crashed into a heap, hoping the world would swallow me up. Memory after memory long forgotten, buried in the abyss of my mind have continued to swamp my head. One after the other. Panic attacks somehow under control with my focused breath-work and cold plunging.

I have become hyper sensitive to remarks and comments about situations serious and personal. My own boss told me to get over it and there is far worse situations to deal with. I wanted to punch his head in.

Last night I headed to a place called Patea Dam. It was absolutely incredible to be out the in sticks looking for yet more geocaches to add to my inventory. It had been a week I hadn’t been out.
I got to see all sorts of wild and beautiful creatures as the sun went down. It makes me feel alive to be somewhere new, to discover and learn more about my surroundings.

My head space is a bit of a challenge currently but I can try work through things.

I’ve learnt I need to believe in myself, sadly I don’t feel worth it. I am wondering why I am even doing all this work on myself. What options I have. What sort of person I would be if I don’t do the work on myself?

Love to all

[troebia]

MF, you are truly a unicorn. Maybe just don't believe it yourself

[manuel_moe_g]

I have become hyper sensitive to remarks and comments about situations serious and personal. My own boss told me to get over it and there is far worse situations to deal with. I wanted to punch his head in.

Uh, is your boss an insane person?

only punch his head in if wearing infinity stones gauntlet

wishing you all peace