Alone

[rivergirl]

Thank you for your thoughtful post, Shahronak.

I'm trying to work on the internal factors that you mentioned with my therapist and am also beginning to look for social activities to be less isolated outside of work.

I think that I'm also grieving the loss of relationships, friendships, and experiences that I might have had in my life if I'd been aware of my issues when I was younger and sought help. I think I largely relied on romantic relationships and my marriage to avoid loneliness, but after my marriage ended when I was 40 I didn't even date because my self-esteem was so low. I struggle with the feeling that at 55 it's too late for me now.

I appreciate the chance to post here and am grateful for the replies.

rivergirl