Low point

To start a discussion post as a new topic.
Post Reply
rivergirl
Posts: 1270
Joined: March 3rd, 2013, 6:46 pm
Gender: Female
Issues: Depression, Anxiety

Low point

Post by rivergirl »

This morning I'm terrified with anxiety but also feeling suicidal. I don't want to be this way any more. I've been fighting depression and anxiety for three years but I must be making the wrong decisions because I'm still back in this place too often. I don't see a way out.
User avatar
oak
Posts: 3551
Joined: January 18th, 2013, 8:44 am
Gender: Male

Re: Low point

Post by oak »

You did the right thing posting here. Thank you.

I encourage you, with all the kindness and friendliness I can muster, to call 211. Please do so right away. Tell them what you told us.
Work is love made visible. -Kahlil Gibran
A person with a "why" can endure any "how". -Viktor Frankl
Which is better: to be born good or to overcome your evil nature through great effort? -Skyrim
User avatar
brownblob
Posts: 827
Joined: January 22nd, 2016, 4:51 pm
Gender: male
Issues: depression and anxiety
preferred pronoun: whatshisname

Re: Low point

Post by brownblob »

You have not made any wrong decisions. Depression and anxiety are hard to fight. I know how bad it can be. If you are still suicidal please call a hotline or 211. Please be safe.
I don't like people much and they don't much like me. -A Beautiful Mind
I'm Homesick for a home I never had.--Soul Asylum "Homesick"
rivergirl
Posts: 1270
Joined: March 3rd, 2013, 6:46 pm
Gender: Female
Issues: Depression, Anxiety

Re: Low point

Post by rivergirl »

Thank you Oak and Brownblob. I feel like a broken record saying this, but being able to express how I'm feeling to people who understand and don't judge me means so much to me.

I told my brother what I was experiencing and I know that if I asked he or his wife would take me to ER.

I know intellectually that I shouldn't feel shame about having suicidal thoughts, but it seems so foreign to who I once thought I was.
User avatar
common-bluebell
Posts: 9
Joined: May 11th, 2018, 12:51 pm
Gender: female
Issues: depression
anxiety
self hatred
preferred pronoun: she

Re: Low point

Post by common-bluebell »

Hi rivergirl. Did you ever call 211? I am experiencing similar symptoms like you, but I am always afraid to say anything for fear I will get put in the hospital. What do they do on 211? How are you feeling now? It is such a struggle feeling like nothing you do helps the depression and anxiety. I hope you are in a good place.

Thanks :)
-common-bluebell

p.s. I am always here for anyone who needs to talk
..no judgments
rivergirl
Posts: 1270
Joined: March 3rd, 2013, 6:46 pm
Gender: Female
Issues: Depression, Anxiety

Re: Low point

Post by rivergirl »

Hi common-bluebell,

I've never actually called 211, but I have called a suicide hotline a couple of times. It didn't result in my being hospitalized. If you ever feel really suicidal, please don't hesitate to call them. They'll talk with you and assess your risk.

Another option that I've used is to call something called a "warmline" to talk when I wasn't feeling suicidal but just needed someone to talk to. The one in my area is run by the local NAMI group. Here's a link that gives phone numbers for warmlines in many different areas: http://warmline.org/ Some of the warmlines will take callers from out of their areas as well.

There's also the crisis text line: https://www.crisistextline.org/

I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling so much, but I'm glad you posted and hope you'll continue to reach out here on the forum any time. I like your name and your photo, by the way. Don't give up hope, bluebell.

rivergirl
User avatar
common-bluebell
Posts: 9
Joined: May 11th, 2018, 12:51 pm
Gender: female
Issues: depression
anxiety
self hatred
preferred pronoun: she

Re: Low point

Post by common-bluebell »

Rivergirl,

I can’t tell you how good it felt to get that response. I will definitely make use of those resources. Please message me anytime. Not sure if you can personally message people here or not.

Thanks,
-common-bluebell

p.s. I am always here for anyone who needs to talk
..no judgments
rivergirl
Posts: 1270
Joined: March 3rd, 2013, 6:46 pm
Gender: Female
Issues: Depression, Anxiety

Re: Low point

Post by rivergirl »

Hey common-bluebell,

I'm glad if my post helped a bit. Feel free to message me any time too. You can send private messages to forum users in the user control panel.

I hope you're having a better day today.

rivergirl
Post Reply

Return to “Depression - Unipolar (non BiPolar)”