My seminal moments.

[Pepper]

• I was molested by my uncle at a very young age
  First suicide attempt age 13
  Got my first job in a factory at 16. Was spanked on the ass by a foreign man and his friends stood and laughed.
  Also whilst working there, a much older man tried to force himself on me in a storage closet. I started sleeping with him a few days later.
  At the same time, I started seeing a 28 year old, who had lied and said he was 22. He had a lot of issues including having been raped as a child in the scouts.
  He became dependent and possessive. He wouldn't let me go out with friends. I spent more time at his house than I did at mine, and stopped going to school. He would have sex with me whenever he wanted, would be too rough and hurt me, and call me bitch and slut and other mean things.
  (Around the same time) I had been talking to a girl online for a while. She came to visit me and we had sex.
  The 28 year old looked through my phone, contacted that girl, and found out. She stopped speaking to me and he beat the shit out of me.
  When I broke up with him he became violent. Pushed me down the stairs and raped me violently.
  That night he attempted suicide and ended up in hospital. One of his friends started phoning and texting me, saying it was all my fault.
  
  At 17 I started a relationship with a 24 year old. It was good until I moved away for college after a year of being together. I tried to break up with him kindly... But it ended up a really bad break up. He said he had hidden a camera in my room... I don't know. I slept with a guy, and somehow he knew about it. He also knew messages and call history from my phone, even though I hadn't seen him in weeks. Still don't know how he did it.
  At the same time my parents split up. He worked in the same area as my mum, and he said they had met for a chat and she had told him how much she hated me. So that was a lie... Changed my phone number that evening.
  
  Was diagnosed as bipolar at 19. Started seeing a psychiatrist, who I still see. Also started seeing a psychotherapist to deal with PTSD.
  
  Started seeing my current boyfriend, who is the same age. He is supportive and kind and we have such a healthy relationship. We've been together 4 years now.

[manuel_moe_g]

I read your post, and I honor your pain, Pepper. I am glad your current relationship is healthy for you - you did not deserve those predatory relationships from before. Please take care, thanks for contribution so much to the forum threads! All the best!