My fears

[JoannaTheMad]

I fear that I am doing something wrong at my job and don't know it, and that I'll be fired for it, and I won't be able to pay my credit card bill and my debt will spiral out of control

I fear that I will cheat on my girlfriend

I fear that I will never make it as a musician

I fear that I am withdrawing from all of my friends and isolating myself

I fear that my friends don't like me and actively avoid hanging out with me

I fear that I spend too much time planning and not enough time doing things

I fear that I'll never be able to accomplish a tenth of the things on my lifelist

I fear that people will always see my skepticism as pessimism

I fear that I'll never get better at socializing with new people

I fear that people will be upset about my belongings or my finances or any arbitrary nonsense after I die

I fear that I'll get into some sort of accident that will not kill me, but leave me in great pain for an extended period of time

I fear that I'll accidentally kill someone and I'll spend the rest of my life dealing with that

I fear that I have some sort of speech impediment that I'm not aware of

I fear that, because I take in and love so many podcasts, music, and various media, I'll never have any original ideas, and I'll always be subconsciously stealing material from someone

I fear that I am too controlling, but people around me are too scared to let me know

I fear that one of my best friends will die and I'll feel nothing

I fear that someone I know will find my private files (old letters, porn, etc.), and that they'll never tell me

I fear that someone will steal my identity and whoever is in charge of sorting this out (assuming there is someone) won't believe me when I say I am who I say I am

I fear that all the security is watching me when I enter a store, and that, when I leave a store without buying something, they think I stole something

I fear that, in my attempt to get past being a people pleaser, I've actively made friends and family dislike me

I fear that I'll never be able to move away from Arizona and I'll get stuck in a comfortable job that ultimately limits my potential

I fear that I'll break some necessary piece of equipment in the middle of a show and my band won't be able to continue because of me, and the whole audience will be disappointed

I fear that I'm not very good at anything, especially the skills which I take some pride in

I fear that I have epilepsy, but don't know it, and will find out on stage in the middle of a show

I fear that I spend either much more or much less time thinking about other people than they spend thinking about me

I fear that, before I know it, I will have accomplished nothing, and I'll be way too old to go back and change that

I fear that when I am clipping my nails and I have my shirt off, I will somehow end up getting my nipples in the nail clippers and really hurting myself.

I fear that I've unintentionally hidden a humblebrag in one of these fears and the person reading/listening to this is like "Ugh, can you believe this douche?"

I fear that I'll die in some incredibly embarrassing way

[JoannaTheMad]

I fear that I have peaked