If I ignore the chronic pains I get will be something serious.
I fear that I'll die alone.
I suffer from health anxiety, and those things go through my mind all the time.
I Fear
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mfanton2016
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- Gender: Female
- Issues: Major depression, Generalized anxiety
- preferred pronoun: She
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Imissmysun
- Posts: 282
- Joined: June 29th, 2016, 5:44 am
- Gender: Female
- Issues: Anxiety, Depression, past trauma healing,
- preferred pronoun: she
- Location: Central New York
Re: I Fear
I fear failure
...that I will be seen as an idiot
....that I really am not a smart person
... that I am really a selfish horrible person that my inner voice is right and I am truly worthless and not capable
... that I am truly the worst mother in the world that it is my fault that my oldest is autistic and my middle has learning disabilities and ADHD - that I am broken goods producing broken goods
... that I am so unattractive both inside and out that I will never be accepted
... that I will die alone
... that I am really not loved that no one really loves me
... on deep dark days I fear that my darkness was right when I thought to leave the earth that its better off without me
... that I am a monster or a robot or a monster robot that can't access feelings but can't not feel others feelings and wants to help but just messes up lives and then will be left alone
...that I will be seen as an idiot
....that I really am not a smart person
... that I am really a selfish horrible person that my inner voice is right and I am truly worthless and not capable
... that I am truly the worst mother in the world that it is my fault that my oldest is autistic and my middle has learning disabilities and ADHD - that I am broken goods producing broken goods
... that I am so unattractive both inside and out that I will never be accepted
... that I will die alone
... that I am really not loved that no one really loves me
... on deep dark days I fear that my darkness was right when I thought to leave the earth that its better off without me
... that I am a monster or a robot or a monster robot that can't access feelings but can't not feel others feelings and wants to help but just messes up lives and then will be left alone
Just another messed up chick, who hates her body and face, and voice, and thinks she is useless and her stuff isn't that bad and she should get over it.
-Sarah St. Lunatic
-Sarah St. Lunatic
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bagOdix
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- Gender: Male
- Issues: Depression, anxiety, anti-social disorder
- preferred pronoun: he
- Location: Baltimore, MD
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Re: I Fear
- I will never land stable work again due to my disabilities
- I will not be able to provide for my family
- I will never find out where I fit in the world
- I will always feel alone
When you die, you won't know you're dead. The same thing can be said if you're stupid.