Dear Exposure
- Beany Boo
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- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
At this point, I'll settle for just being without qualifying it at all.
Mmmmm just being...
Mmmmm just being...
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- HowDidIGetHere
- Posts: 246
- Joined: June 22nd, 2016, 9:51 am
- Gender: Male
- Issues: Bipolar II, Borderline/Avoidant Personality Disorder, child abuse/neglect
- preferred pronoun: he
- Location: No fixed abode
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Re: Dear Exposure
'The field “Issues” is too long, a maximum of 80 characters is allowed.' Wow. Totally outed by a message board.
WTF Just Happened?—a new web magazine on coming out as mentally ill.
WTF Just Happened?—a new web magazine on coming out as mentally ill.
Re: Dear Exposure
"I want:
Someone to have all the same (or similar) problems as me; mental or otherwise; and for me to accept them in that person, for the purpose of negotiating times to hang out and do fun stuff."
I'm so delighted by this post, Beany.
Someone to have all the same (or similar) problems as me; mental or otherwise; and for me to accept them in that person, for the purpose of negotiating times to hang out and do fun stuff."
I'm so delighted by this post, Beany.
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
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- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
rivergirl
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
i want:
To struggle to let others struggle; to manage.
To struggle to let others struggle; to manage.
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
I want:
To realize it quickly, when I'm overreacting; but respond quickly when I realize I'm not.
To realize it quickly, when I'm overreacting; but respond quickly when I realize I'm not.
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- Beany Boo
- Posts: 2565
- Joined: June 13th, 2016, 3:18 am
- Gender: Not-quite-cis-male
- Issues: Risk averse, conversation difficulty, relationship difficulty
- preferred pronoun: He/him
Re: Dear Exposure
I got up not feeling happy. I put as little pressure on that as I could. Walking to the train I felt disappointed in each of my colleagues. Eventually it was satisfying. I was honest with one of them who started talking at me while I was very busy. His face didn’t like that at all. I was very comfortable disappointing him though. I had some difficult conversations which I’m proud of. I didn’t enjoy working hard all day. But as long as I kept accepting that I didn’t, I was able to focus. It was great seeing me not pleasing people. That’s the loneliest activity. I let a few things go wrong, or continue to go wrong. Some were big. I just waited for the parts I was responsible for to show up in a form I was entitled to deal with. I look forward to feeling disappointed towards my colleagues again today and not having to show them ‘happiness.’ Today’s goal is to speak as little as possible, let the silences be as awkward as I can stand and to breathe freely while I listen to anything. I can already feel my focus aligning.
Mr (blue) B. Boo
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
‘Out of nowhere the mind comes forth.’ - Zen koan
‘Let go or be dragged.’ - Zen proverb
‘Knowing how to yield is strength.’ - Laozi
- brownblob
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- Joined: January 22nd, 2016, 4:51 pm
- Gender: male
- Issues: depression and anxiety
- preferred pronoun: whatshisname
Re: Dear Exposure
Sounds like you are in control of yourself Beanie. It sounds like you are standing up for yourself and doing what you do and not worrying about what you do not do.
I don't like people much and they don't much like me. -A Beautiful Mind
I'm Homesick for a home I never had.--Soul Asylum "Homesick"
I'm Homesick for a home I never had.--Soul Asylum "Homesick"
Re: Dear Exposure
Beanie!
So good to "see" you again.
rivergirl
So good to "see" you again.
rivergirl