brownblob

[brownblob]

Finally had my surgery. It didn't go as planned. I went in Friday for same day gall bladder surgery. My gall bladder was inflamed and full of stones. There was a duct blocked. It went from being laprascopic to cutting me open. There was some bleeding and then they used Narcan to bring me out of the anesthesia. I'm not real sure of all the details, but I spent a night in ICU and didn't get out of the hospital until Wednesday. I'm still feeling bad but glad to be home. Been one terrible week.

[oak]

That sucks. I am sorry to hear you are suffering.

I hope you are feeling a little better compared to Wednesday.

[manuel_moe_g]

Hello Brownblob.

Glad you are home. Sorry to hear that the surgery was so intense. Please take care. Keep us informed about your progress.

[rivergirl]

I'm sorry about your rough time with surgery, brownblob. I hope your recovery has been going better since that first week.

rg

[brownblob]

Thanks Oak, river, manuel,

i've been getting a little better everyday to where I'm starting to feel human. It was a bad experience, but was still easier than dealing with mental illness.

[manuel_moe_g]

Yes, mental illness is quite a curse. Please take care, brownblob.

[oak]

Agreed.

We hope you continue feel better, Brownblob. Thanks for sharing.

[brownblob]

I've been sinking down lately. I had gall bladder surgery 8 months ago and never regained my energy afterwards. I went to the dr a couple of weeks ago and they ran bloodwork and said everything was normal. I have grown frustrated with myself and my struggling to function. It is so easy to hate myself. I see the psychiatrist in a couple of weeks and am not sure what to tell him. I last saw him in March and when I told him I was feeling tired he offered me pills. I don't want to take stimulants and I had also assumed my energy would come back in time. If I am honest and tell him I am feeling depressed than I am sure it will be decided my lack of energy is caused by depression. In honesty this time, my lack of energy came first. The depression has just been getting me the last month. Then there is the whole antidepressant crapshoot. Will he up my dose or will we start trying different meds. I respond to almost none of the meds I have tried.
The atmosphere at my job sucks. It is not a happy place, but I don't really want to start over someplace else.
Nothing seems to go my way. I don't know what happiness would look like.
Sliding downhill.

[rivergirl]

Hey brownblob,

It's hard enough to be prone to depression without having physical illness thrown into the mix. I don't have any words of wisdom today, just hoping that you have some better days or even moments on the way this week. Sending some love your way.

rivergirl

[oak]

Thank you for sharing.

I am sorry you are suffering so.

A second opinion may be indicated, as something seems to be going on.

Keep us posted.