Negative thoughts are slowing down

[manuel_moe_g]

My negative thoughts are slowing down, to the point where I can deal with them one at a time. My therapist wants me to seek out the root fear or pain in each of my negative thoughts.

One key fear I have is that "I will be rejected by everyone, forever". This fear prompts me to hate myself for every minor moral transgression, because I am afraid everyone can see right through me, and will use it to reject me.

I have the pain of fatigue a lot. I am tired a lot, even though I get a lot of sleep. This also causes me to hate myself.

[Lilac]

I see yo u and hear you MM. You are not alone. You are worthy of love and care.

[manuel_moe_g]

Thanks so much, Lilac. All the best!

[Fargin]

It's been inspirational the way, you've taken a very active and welcoming part in this community, despite what you're going through yourself. As I see it, you've got every reason to be fatigued, not so much because of your forum activity, but because worrying and hating yourself for worrying is a low paying, full time job.

[manuel_moe_g]

because worrying and hating yourself for worrying is a low paying, full time job.

Very true.

I am trying to be compassionate to myself, and it is hard because that was never modeled for me by my parents. My parents were very dismissive about my pain and fears. I know how to be compassionate to others, but it takes a lot of effort and visualization to be compassionate to myself.