Sir-knob-head by name and nature

[Sir-knob-head]

Evening

I'm ant. Call me what you want

I suffer with anxiety. Deep depression and more than not. Suicide ideation.

I'm a British biker. Thus is my passion.

Anything else. Ask me. I'm very open n honest. No reason to hide

[rivergirl]

Welcome, Sir knob-head,
I'm sorry you suffer from severe depression, but you're in good company here. I've enjoyed reading your posts and your reply to Oliveismydog was so sweet that it made me feel like crying.

rivergirl

[Sir-knob-head]

Thank you rivergirl

My depression grows each second all the time I find reasons to hate myself more

Oliveisnydog reply was toned down. Because reading it back it was very confrontational. Wrong place wrong time

I'm here if yiu need a chat about yiur troubles

[rivergirl]

What kind of bike do you ride? I live in the Los Angeles area but I see British bikes here pretty often. My brother rides a classic Norton.

You mentioned in another post that you think about dying on your bike. I used to fantasize about driving my car in front of a metro train every time I had to wait at a crossing. Things like that still enter my head but not every day.

I hope things can start getting better for you too. Please don't give up.

[Sir-knob-head]

I've got 3 mt09 tracer.. Xt660z and a 1978 cb400t
Old classic brit bikes are good. New ones are pretty erm not British. Engines built in China everything else made in Europe. The bikes painted and assembled in the UK. Con!

Riding my bike at 130mph hoping someone pulls out on me. If not dying. Pain will do!

I have suicide thoughts daily. They don't scare me any.ore. When I take pills I don't rake what i should. I take the whole fucking pack. But doing that make me feel powerful!

Thanks but I gave up ages ago. I'm dead inside. My body keeps going against my will

[rivergirl]

I know the vintage cb400t (Hawk?), popular when I was in high school so I guess I'm vintage too.

I know the feeling of being dead inside & also wanting to die on the road. I'm not in that place right now but it's close enough that I can still feel it from time to time.

I hope at least for now you keep riding & keep communicating, even if it feels like you don't know why ...