Hi guys,
I'm new here. Found the podcast recently and I believe it saved me during a very dark time. Three years into therapy I realised the reason I have been depressed, anxious and suicidal my whole life is due to both my parents abusing me and acting like nothing ever happened.
I've been using alcohol and sex/love/work addiction to numb myself since I was 11. I am now 27, aware that this shit isn't working and fucking miserable. I feel utterly lost, alone and honestly, I at time cannot see a reason to live. I am devoted to getting better and being happy. I know I will survive this.
I am sick of living a lie and sick of hiding my true self from people. I want love and intimacy. I don't want to hide all my pain in my art and music anymore.
So, yeah, hi, from Ireland.
Katie
I'd Prefer To Be Drinking
-
- Posts: 37
- Joined: September 4th, 2017, 11:02 am
- Gender: female
- Issues: Covert incest, codependency, addiction, depression, anxiety, CPTSD
Re: I'd Prefer To Be Drinking
Thanks for sharing!
Welcome.
Welcome.
Work is love made visible. -Kahlil Gibran
A person with a "why" can endure any "how". -Viktor Frankl
Which is better: to be born good or to overcome your evil nature through great effort? -Skyrim
A person with a "why" can endure any "how". -Viktor Frankl
Which is better: to be born good or to overcome your evil nature through great effort? -Skyrim
-
- Posts: 37
- Joined: September 4th, 2017, 11:02 am
- Gender: female
- Issues: Covert incest, codependency, addiction, depression, anxiety, CPTSD
Re: I'd Prefer To Be Drinking
Thank you!
Enjoying reading the posts here and knowing I'm not alone and others are making their way through this shit.
![Crying or Very Sad :cry:](./images/smilies/icon/cry.gif)
Enjoying reading the posts here and knowing I'm not alone and others are making their way through this shit.
![Crying or Very Sad :cry:](./images/smilies/icon/cry.gif)
- brownblob
- Posts: 827
- Joined: January 22nd, 2016, 4:51 pm
- Gender: male
- Issues: depression and anxiety
- preferred pronoun: whatshisname
Re: I'd Prefer To Be Drinking
Welcome to the forum,
Glad to hear you are committed to getting better and being happy. I know those feelings of being alone, numb and lost and not seeing a reason to live. We just have to try to keep moving forward.
Glad to hear you are committed to getting better and being happy. I know those feelings of being alone, numb and lost and not seeing a reason to live. We just have to try to keep moving forward.
I don't like people much and they don't much like me. -A Beautiful Mind
I'm Homesick for a home I never had.--Soul Asylum "Homesick"
I'm Homesick for a home I never had.--Soul Asylum "Homesick"
-
- Posts: 37
- Joined: September 4th, 2017, 11:02 am
- Gender: female
- Issues: Covert incest, codependency, addiction, depression, anxiety, CPTSD
Re: I'd Prefer To Be Drinking
Thanks, BrownBlob. Its seriously hard going at the moment. I just went back to therapy after a month break, it felt good to catch her up on where I'm at.