Hello to the forum. Long time listener

[rockfisher]

Hello, I am normally not one to seek therapy, or support unless I have been forced into it by some sort of way. I am an alcoholic, but been sober for almost four years now. I have handled that pretty well, was forced into quitting because i was diagnosed with Diabetes and I had to lose weight and quit drinking. I turned my diabetes around and lost the weight, so that is a positive thing. I still struggle with depression, suicidal thoughts, porn addiction, and I have some sexual dysfunction problems stemming from being molested as a child. I grew up in a stable home with a nosey domineering mother who was very inappropriate in many ways. She is not the person who molested me, but she would walk around naked and things like that when it was unnecessary to do so, and was basically all up in my shit all of the time. I'm am very introverted because of it. Have been my whole life. I'm married to a wonderful woman and we have two great kids. Lots of stress at home though because both of our kids have autism, and it gets very difficult at times to deal with those issues. They are great kids though otherwise. I have sexual issues and a porn addiction I have been struggling with since before I was married, so this has been going on now for at least 20 years. Our sexlife is struggling due to it. Trying to change that. I'm hoping this forum will be helpful, as I hate face to face therapy. Therapy always turns into a shit show with me and I find myself just playing a role with therapists. So that is basically me in a nutshell. Hello everybody.

[brownblob]

Hi,
I'm another introvert. I'm sorry you've had to go through everything you went through. It's great to hear you are sober. I hope you can find ways to deal with your issues. Welcome to the forum.

[rockfisher]

Thanks a lot for the warm welcome. I've been enjoying it so far here.