Dumped on New Years

[shaunathon]

Had an arguement with GF the day before Christmas. Carried over for a week and got dumped on NYE. This was the first person I ever though I could spend the rest of my life with and I blew it due to my crushing depression and anxiety. Not only did I lose the girl, I've lost her three kids who I've grown to love more than anything ever. This is just too much. It just gets so much worse every year...

[walklikeanegyptian]

Are you in treatment?

[shaunathon]

Not yet. I'm going to call for an appointment today. I've never done it before because I have a lot of trouble putting my feelings into words that make sense. I reread what I posted earlier and it in no way describes exactly how utterly despondent I feel. I'm nervous, but kind of looking forward to getting help.

[SleepyNinja]

That's awful, I don't know you but I feel for you. My depression and anxiety problems have hurt/ruined the few relationships i've had so far, not saying my experiences are the same/better/worse as yours. Its fucking sucks.

[shaunathon]

Thanks for the kind words sleepyninja, it's very nice to be heard. I've honestly never been in such bad shape. I mean it sucks when a relationship ends when you don't want it too but knowing I won't have her three kids in my life is just devastating. It's like losing the love of four people at once. I'm completely non-functional right now. Only thing that gets me through the day is this podcast and forum.