Hello:) introduction....:):)

[Pixa]

Hi all! I'm Pixa.
I am a fan of the podcast which I found while I was in a deep cesspool of depression /mourning over my fathers death due to pancreatic cancer.
Being I was the one who was the primary caregiver, I , by default got to witness all of the raw emotion, including the day he asked his oncologist "so how long do I have?".
I always THOUGHT I WAS so strong...until many months after he passed I was still lying in my bedroom with no desire to do anything or see anyone....with blinds closed..
It's been a year and a half plus and I am better only some days.. This podcast has helped me as I am able to see others that feel similar to myself, as NO ONE I know has any understanding and can't see what is STILL wrong with me??!???

I do still have a ways to go ...so, here I am.

Good to meet all...
Xoxo

[Murphy]

Hello! Welcome!

Death of a loved one is so hard, and I can't imagine how much harder it is when you're there to witness it all up close like that. You were as strong as you could have been. We all deal with these things as best as we can. Celebrate the little victories. A friend and I used to say, "Are you out of bed? ... Are you wearing pants? Great! 2 victories right there!"

[rc409]

My father....His death happened way too early, but it was natural he died before I did.

Our fathers having to bury one of us would have been worse.