I have sexual trauma related PTSD, major depression, bulimia (past), suicidal ideation. I adore my pets, sometimes I hate people. I dressed like a boy from age 10-16. I wanted to be a boy, I even dreamed of peeing like a boy, but my feelings where hurt when people thought I was a boy. At age 9 I planned to swallow my mom's box of pills once my menstrual cycle again. I began to become feminine again at around 16 but the bulimia started. I believe I was hiding in a boys costume to hide from the child predator next door neighbor & peeping tom.
I want to know if or how I will ever enjoy sexual touch again. I've been through PTSD therapy and have been able to leave most of the anger behind that I feel from sexual touch.
I'm afraid of bathrooms due to the Trans laws. I'm afraid of predators taking advantage of the Trans laws. I'm afraid of being in bathrooms/showers with people who have penis's. I am happy for Trans people being accepted more in society but it's scarey. I don't hate but people automatically feel you're a hater when you voice these concerns.
Ironically Trans men are probably in more danger from men when going in men's rooms then I am in a women's restrooms with potential predators. I've been able to see the danger more realistically with PTSD therapy.
