Long time listener, first time in the forum

[pacificgreyclouds]

Hello,

I'm a single mom of three suffering with depression, anxiety, and PTSD. Paul's podcast has been a constant source of help/companionship on the lonely days. I also grew up in an extremely abusive home with physical, sexual abuse by caregivers, parents, etc.

I've been getting better recently. I applied for a new job and fingers crossed I get it. My family has been supportive, but it's been a long process. I feel like I don't deserve good things happening to me sometimes but I keep going. I isolated myself a lot and pushed my good friends away. I do go to a few support groups but am looking for more in my area. I have to juggle family responsibilities, my health, etc. Having mental illness is a full-time job in my eyes.

I am more of a lurker than a poster but hopefully I'll get out of that habit.

Thanks,
PNWC

[Suzanne]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. It's not easy to open up.
I know I feel I should be grateful for the good thinks in my life. And I am but that doesn't stop the feeling of emptiness inside.
Just take one day at a time. Some days are better than others. But the feeling of dread never leaves.
Good luck for our future health and support from others.

[brownblob]

I hope you get the job. Great to hear you are moving in a positive direction.