I'm afraid we're creeping toward some form oligarchy and authoritarianism.
People can be so stupid and ugly and wantonly ignorant, but I've known that all my life, haven't I?
And I've always felt somewhat alien and detached, out of step....
And afraid of discussing my worldviews in any depth because they're negative, and I don't want to bring anyone down.
Such a sad and ugly place....
Thinking back when I was in grade school, visiting a friend's house. His brother's rec room and bedroom were in the basement. Walls were painted black with really nice Day-Glo spray-painted characters and decorations on the wall. What a cool hang-out!
Asked where his brother was, and was told he went off to the Viet Nam war, and didn't come back the same. Maybe institutionalized? Made an impression on me, but I didn't ask any real questions... Was that my first inkling of things?
I feel like just going to sleep now, or getting drunk
